Lola - Yorkshire Terrier Mix
I’ve grown up having dogs, and when I moved last year all I wanted was a dog of my own. Finally, my boyfriend gave in and—last Saturday—we picked up our beautiful Lola (a Yorkshire Terrier mix)!
She’s absolutely amazing, which makes me even more shocked I’m feeling this way. Yes, she cries when we go to bed, but not for long. And, she wees on the carpet and chews everything (including me—I have the war wounds to prove it!!!). But, I can understand everything, since she’s just a puppy…only three-and-a-half months old.
I just have this overwhelming, negative feeling, and I’m not sure I can even find the words to explain it coherently. I hate that my parents’ dogs are no longer ‘mine’ and that Lola now needs to be priority. I HATE it when she cries, I feel like I’m completely failing as a puppy mum. My boyfriend tries to comfort me when I get upset, but the look in his face when one of us is clearing up another wee, or throwing away another of one of our possessions that she’s managed to destroy around says it all. We love her, too much to even explain, but I just feel that we are never going to get to the other side. I know this is silly, because even the thought of her losing her puppy face and growing up is almost as upsetting. I just want to do the very best by her and the saying that “a dog is in your life for only a short period, but for your dog, you are their whole life,” makes the idea of doing wrong by her all the worse. I go back to work on Monday, and although we have started training her on being alone (I will be checking on her every few hours), I just hate the thought of her crying herself to sleep. We have tried crate training but, again, the sound of her hysterically crying made that lesson a short one.
I can’t/won’t give her back because I love her too much already and I feel like I need her as much as she needs me. I just need to know that the feelings I have are normal, I suppose, and to hear any advice this community might have for me. Thank you in advance!